A curve

This is a point in my life where i cannot look behind. I know in my heart that i have decided to do it, but i fear of regrets. Whatever choices i have made in my life, have always meant something to me. They have always brought me happiness sooner or later. Some decisions brought me success and some others, failure. I still enjoyed the feel of it, because i enjoyed the freedom of deciding. Will this decision bring me happiness or regrets. I have chosen to leave a world of happiness behind, for my own good. I have decided to quit my first job. I am letting my elders decide for me. Even if it makes me leave a world of happiness behind. I think i will find a new one, but will i fall in love with it. Will i have the same intimacy and  depth in the new relationships i find there. I wonder what future this decision will bring me, no i fear. But for once i am sure that never will i doubt my father and his decisions  for his thoughts about me are deep and his love pure. He wants my world to be perfect, more than i know. I am approaching in my life, this curve unknown and i wonder if i will wonder "if i had known". They say good byes are hard to say. I find it easy these days, in fact rather enjoyable. You get to tell all your dear friends that you are moving on. They learn that life is not always how we want it and i get to ditch the irony of life before it got to me. The sweet sadness it brings keeps you going for a while. Then comes your new world joys. To walk hand in hand with me in this curve, are my old pals, my dear ones. They gave me the strength and energy i have now, it's what i need. It's magical how one day from our lives together can give us so much happiness, just like old times.